Monday, July 8, 2013

Our one month old little man!

I can't believe my little man is already 5 weeks old. We have made sure that we have had lots of cuddle time on the couch, I am pretty sure we have left a dent in the cushion. This past month has been, let's say, a new experience. There have been some really hard moments where I felt like I wanted to scream like a crazy person instead of sit down and feed him yet again! Don't misunderstand me I love him dearly and it's not that I don't want to take care of him, just the need for some more mental stimulation. This past two weeks my hormones must have leveled out a little and he started gas-smiling, because I became a whole lot more attached to him. Now when I look at him my chest feels like it it is going to burst with so much love. I am so glad he decided it was time to join us here on earth but I fear for the trails he will have to face in this wicked world. I have spent every hour of this past month watching him and learning about him. It's crazy how easily you can devote your entire life to your children with the only reward being a smile. I wish I could say I know exactly why he is crying every time he squawks but I can't. I am still learning, and I remember this part clearly from my girls, as soon as I master a cry or need he changes the game on me. Unfortunately I have to go back to work next week and I know theres no way I will be able to remember exactly how it felt to hold him in the hospital, or what I feel as I rub his fuzzy head while he nurses, I hope I can remember small pieces. I have been working on photo albums of our life so far and it has been great to remember all the fun times with the girls and the fun stages we get to go thru with him. I am so glad we get to have the opportunity to meet this special spirit and guide him thru this mortal life, even if he is colicky every night!

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