Our one month old little man!

I can't believe my little man is already 5 weeks old. We have made sure that we have had lots of cuddle time on the couch, I am pretty sure we have left a dent in the cushion. This past month has been, let's say, a new experience. There have been some really hard moments where I felt like I wanted to scream like a crazy person instead of sit down and feed him yet again! Don't misunderstand me I love him dearly and it's not that I don't want to take care of him, just the need for some more mental stimulation. This past two weeks my hormones must have leveled out a little and he started gas-smiling, because I became a whole lot more attached to him. Now when I look at him my chest feels like it it is going to burst with so much love. I am so glad he decided it was time to join us here on earth but I fear for the trails he will have to face in this wicked world. I have spent every hour of this past month watching him and learning about him. It's crazy how easily you can devote your entire life to your children with the only reward being a smile. I wish I could say I know exactly why he is crying every time he squawks but I can't. I am still learning, and I remember this part clearly from my girls, as soon as I master a cry or need he changes the game on me. Unfortunately I have to go back to work next week and I know theres no way I will be able to remember exactly how it felt to hold him in the hospital, or what I feel as I rub his fuzzy head while he nurses, I hope I can remember small pieces. I have been working on photo albums of our life so far and it has been great to remember all the fun times with the girls and the fun stages we get to go thru with him. I am so glad we get to have the opportunity to meet this special spirit and guide him thru this mortal life, even if he is colicky every night!

B is for Baby Brother

In church on Sunday the girls were coloring in their coloring books when we found some letters. Kaya and I went through each letter; D is for Daddy etc... When we came to the letter 'B' she asked what B was for, after a pause I said B is for Baby Brother. She turned to Daddy and yelled Daddy B is for Baby Brother! I was slightly embaressed then she points to my tummy and jabbs her little finger at him. We are so excited that come June they will be getting a baby brother. I have noticed a lot of differences with this pregnancy than the girls, I know this is typical esp coming from a twin preg into a singleton and yes, he is the only one there! We made double sure! I just wanted to jot down a few things, I remember with the girls I craved fresh fruits and veggies, which was great except I was pregnant all through winter. Same I still crave them but lately I craved EVERYTHING I see! It has been so hard and embaressing. I just want to eat constantly. I know that some cravings actually mean you are deficient in nutrients so I do indulge but man, if calories were free I wouldn't stop! HE MOVES, and I mean all the time. I think most of it is normal but the girls didn't have this much space so they couldn't move as much as him. I can usually always feel him and I know that I have been a lot more of a whiner this time but sometimes he moves so much I get Braxton Hicks contractions and it kinda hurts. Lately he learned how to do front flips, thats right I am not talking side to side. If I hadn't eat so much ice cream already you could probably see his little body roll across my tummy. He is strong which is really good and as previously mentioned uncomfortable. Big Sister. The girls are actually really excited to have a baby brother. I was afraid Kaya would have a hard time with it simply because she is so attached to me but she lays on my tummy so she can feel him kick her and randomly she will try to poke him. I think that relationship has already defined itself. McKenna is such a nurturer by nature that she is already talking about being my big helper and carrying around her doll which she takes very good care of. I love to see her with rocking it. Nothing gets Baby brother moving like his sisters. Whenever they sit on my lap or cuddle next to me he starts rolling around. It's not even their voice just their mere presence will work. It's kinda humbling. In prep for baby we are getting the girls a bunk bed, very exciting. They decided themselves that McKenna will sleep bottom bunk and Kaya top. We'll see what happens when we get it but I think it's cute that they already picked that out and nobody is fighting for the same bed. We also have to buy another car. The intrigue is just too old and breaking down so maybe a mini van in my future which I don't mind if its easier on my family I'll take it! I hope to be back here more often.